True Grit

The sun is setting on another beautiful day in the south. From Mississippi to Arkansas, and Texas, the sunshine has given me a breath of fresh hope. Something that was much needed after me and Michael had to hellish weeks at the end of February. Knowing our truck was broken down, gave us the opportunity to go home. Some rest that was much needed. However, it also awakened the desires in me to return to all I love -including family.

Going to the gym in the mornings, waking up and going to bed at "normal" times, eating real food, taking a shower any time I want, building fires and watching HGTV while snuggling with Michael (who was hoping to watch the Speed chanel). I love life, and I really long to return to having a life. It's very lonely out on the road, so I am thankful to you for calling and keeping our spirits up.

I cried every day for the last two weeks. Then on Monday, when we arrived in Ohio to pick up our loaner truck (long story, so we'll stick with loaner)... I cried even more. I was so hoping for a fancy truck with the bed that folds up and has a tabel and two chairs, a truck that was spic and span clean to our expectations -as both Michael and I are clean freaks. Instead we got a filthy, smoked in, high mileage truck that gave us both headaches to be in. 

As we really pondered if we wanted to stick with the truck, verses going back home, we both cried. Then we realized something -we have a tangible goal that is well within our reach. The most important thing, is that we as husband and wife are there to take care of each other, and we are busting our asses to build a strong foundation for our family and dreams. So, we looked into each others' eyes and dwelt on the strength and grit that makes us who we are. We are not quitters.

We spent two full days cleaning the truck and situating our minimized belongings into their cubby holes. Then, a wave of peace washed over me and Michael and we realized something, we have a powerful tool in our possession -choice. Our choice of how we view our jobs, our life, our marriage determines our success or failure, not only in reaching financial and career goals, but the success and failure of our commitment to each other in marriage, and our commitments to God.

I know that is deep, but it is everything that has been going on in my mind that I have hidden behind a strong, secure voice, smile, and makeup. So, I quote Jeremiah "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to help you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future."

"Therefore, we set our eyes on not what is seen, but what is unseen. The things that are seen are temporary and the things that are unseen are eternal."

"For the greatest of these is love."

Michael and I choose faith. I ask you all to have a faith the size of a mustard seed in us, and we will prove to you that the outcome is real.

Love to all.